I have been thinking a lot lately about what a psychologist said from Craig Hospital (my rehabilitation Hospital) that someone with an accident like this usually takes about nine years to mentally accept the change. Well, it has been seven years and I'm still not there. I know that I can live with this accident, but it is definitely hard to accept. I continually think about my "other life" and the things that I enjoyed doing. I would often go on runs to clear my mind and relieve stress or I would go play basketball to be with my friends and just enjoy the time. Now I am in the position where I really can't do any of the things I enjoyed before. I am trying to learn new things to do but it is definitely difficult.

Another thing that I am struggling with is accepting what I look like now. It is a definite change from before. I am still 6 foot 4, but only 5 foot 10 in my chair. I miss exercising, and just getting out and enjoying physical activities. Watching and participating are definitely two totally different things.

I hope I don't sound like I'm complaining; because I do have a great life. I have a wonderful family that takes care of me 24/7 and great friends that keep life interesting. There is no way that I could be where I am or have the attitude I do without the special people in my life.

I am definitely growing spiritually and learning new things about the gospel because of my situation. I know this life isn't just about running or growing physically but it is to come closer to Christ. I don't speak a lot but I do like to share what I can with those I can to help put a better perspective on life. It is amazing that it takes such a huge intervention in life to take a good look at what is important. Like the Scriptures say it is better to turn to Christ without such intervention but, it is good to turn to Christ anyway we can.

I cannot be thankful enough for the gospel of Jesus Christ and the perspective it gives me. Knowing that this life is not the end give me peace of mind. I know that I can return to live with Jesus Christ again through His mercy and grace. Perspective is key. Perspective of life, perspective of eternal truths and perspective of our actions is what we can hope and live for.